Soul Revitalisation Project Day 7

I’ve been wanting to update my websites, I’ve had two for a while, and I’ve been want to combine their content and move them both here. I was wanting to do it slowly and gradually,  not stress myself.  I’ve been playing around here, adding these posts, putting my pages in etc… Then boom. My main website was gone. Everything went with it, all the copy, a lot of the files. Gone.  Shop gone. Customer history gone.

Breathe.

So, today I worked on my website more than intended, and spent hours on the phone with the hosting company.

What feels right about this, what makes me feel like I’m on the right path to healing is the lack of anxiety about it. Yeah, of course it upset me, caused some stress, but there was no staying in that place. In fact there wasn’t even a concious effort to ‘fix’ it. I was just in the flow.

One moment there was upset, but then that moment passed and there was a new moment,  and a new one, and a new one and a new one…..  My day became a complete flow of purpose ease and grace. Here was no getting stuck in one moment and the holding it.

Maybe this is what it feels like to be me again.

Maybe I’m getting there.

xxxx

Every woman needs a little gypsy in her soul… There is, I think in all women, a wild and an ancient gypsy who cries in anguish when we starch her flat. There is a part of us that can never, ever be happy until the gypsy can dance. Clarissa Pinkola Estes